It will never be the same without you, my head hurts and heart aches everytime I think of you and I'll start crying again. every year- this month our family will be eating glutinous rice balls (tangyuan) as a tradition cooked by you but it'll never be the same again from this year onwards, I miss you and I miss how you're not here with us anymore. I want us to eat the tangyuan soup cooked by you together. I want you to be the one scooping the soup for me this year again. I want you to be there with us again another year, but you're gone.